My Thoughts Pt.1

 March, 16th 2023

Last year, may be the toughest year of my life.

Not only last year but since 2020, it was my tough year.

I lost my mom in 2020, it was all of a sudden.

I never thought that she'll left me so soon.

I never imagine before that I'll lose her earlier.

Since then, my life has changed.

But I still have my husband that time, my partner, who always be there for me after my mom passed away.

He's the only person that I have, he's a friend, my best friend.

My life is depend on him.

Because I never able to live alone before.

I get lonely so easily, I can't do everything by myself.

I was so clingy, always needed someone to accompany me.

I thought my husband will always be my best friend.

But then things changed, and our relationship getting messy.

He never come home, always leave me alone in our house.

He never pick up my call, never reply my message.

He let me sleep alone in our bed, eat alone in our house, and going to work alone.

I always come home from work with an empty house.

He never there, he never gave me news.

Since then, without he knows and without I knows.

He let me learn to live alone, to not depend on people.

And I become stronger.

So I get used to being alone and doing everything alone.

And I try to gather every courage in my self to make a decision.

Whether I stay or I leave.

And I choose to leave.

To be continued...