My Thoughts Pt.2

March, 24th 2023 

Today is the second day of Ramadhan

And this year I spend Ramadhan only with my dad

It's not like any other Ramadhan tho

When my family is still complete

When my mother is still alive

It's been almost 3 years since she passed away, left us abruptly

I kind of miss her almost everyday

Life is never be the same without her

On Ramadhan, I miss the smell of her fried foods and the smell of her rice cake

Which she always made every Ramadhan to sell

But now, this Ramadhan the house feels very quiet without her present

Sometimes Dad had to breakfasting alone because I'm unable to arrive home on time

I feel exhausted sometimes

Working in the company from 8am-6pm then go home and arrive at home around 9pm

After that I had to do something like clean the house and cook something

Sometimes I feel about to break down because I feel weak

But I have to do that on repeat almost everyday

And I know that I have to be strong ....